Yesssssss!!!!!!!!

omg, omg, omg!!!!!!!!! my fellow Bush opposers!!! i found the most AWESOME website!!!! i am not going to guarantee that it is credible but it gives you hope and it is at least worth looking at! the site is: www.whatreallyhappened.com check it out!

Here's a quote:
(there would be a picture of a soldier right here) Dead because of a lie. Dead because selfish people in government wanted a war and lied to get one, aided by selfish people in the media WHO TOOK MONEY FROM GEORGE BUSH TO LIE TO THE AMERICAN PEOPLE. The government and the media traded the blood of these young Americans for their personal gain. Look at their faces. How can you not be angry?

my fish is really sick. i feel really bad. if he dies it will be my fault.

why don't i have any links??? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Religion Based On Fear

That "discussion" (translation: argument) we had in History today made me feel REALLY suffocated and helpless, like i used to feel at C.H.O.I.C.E. For those of you who weren't there i'll give you a brief overview. Leisha gave a presentation on the Scopes Trial. It was a trial trying to make it legal in Tennessee to teach Evolution at public schools. As you might guess this lead to a discussion about current times and of course several certain people (you can guess who they are) said that Evolution should NOT be taught at public schools, but that CREATIONISM should be. I just get SO frustrated when people start saying that Creationism is the only way. It makes me so frustrated that people are so blind. So I started thinking up a little conversation in my head and I will put it here for your enjoyment, critic (or is it critique?), annoyance, or to give you something to swear at...

Haras: How do you know Creationism is the truth?

Valt: Because the Bible says so.

Haras: Wasn't the Bible written by men?

Valt: Yes.

Haras: What are some of the characteristics of Man?

Valt: kind... loving....

Haras: Yes, in some cases. would you agree that Man is sometimes greedy and powerhungry?

Valt: Yes.

Haras: So is it not reasonable to say that the Bible could have been written by a greedy and powerhungry man seeking to get attention for himself?

Valt: No, because he was chosen by God and only a worthy man would be chosen by God.

Haras: How do you know this?

Valt: Because the Bible says so.

Haras: So the Bible which was written by this man says that he is chosen by God?

Valt: Yes

Haras: Mmhm.... Was this man around when the world was created?

Valt: No.

Haras: Then how does he know how it was created if he was not there?

Valt: Because God told him.

Haras: Right, and you know this because it is in the Bible and he was chosen by God to write the Bible and this is also said in the Bible..... God is all good and loving, is that correct?

Valt: Yes.

Haras: And everything that ever was is created by God, right?

Valt: Yes.

Haras: So why is there a Devil and why is there a Hell?

Valt: Because one of God's angel turned against him.

Haras: If God created all the angels why would one be bad and turn against him?

Valt: Because he was evil.

Haras: Why would a God who was all good create something that was evil? and how?

Valt: .....

Haras: Why do you believe in a religion which is based on fear?

Valt: it is not based on fear.

Haras: so you are part of this religion because you want to go to heaven?

Valt: Yes.

Haras: Why do you want to go to heaven?

Valt: Because if I don't go to heaven I will go to Hell.

Haras: Are you afraid of going to Hell?

Valt: Yes. (sorry, this is slightly biased... Valt would probably say "if it is God's will then that is where i will go)

Haras: So what if there was no Hell and everyone went to heaven? Would you be a Christian then?

That is the ultimate question.

I wish things were the way they used to be. I'm not sure exactly what that was like, but I know it wasn't like this. I guess I miss mee. The old me. I don't really feel like I've changed, but I know I have. I've pulled into myself, hiddent myself - my true self - from the world.

My true self has gotten hurt too many times. I try not to show it when it happens. I try to laught it off. But you can't just laugh it off when some one you trusted completely ridicules something that is important to you, that you believe in. Now I feel like and actress when I'm around my friends - except Carritt, Gray Bean, Tal or Beinohtar. I'm always pretending to be happy or sad, or that I agree with this or that, or that blah blah blah was horrible, mostly listening, nodding my head... pretending.

But mostly I don't even know who my true self is. I just want to be me though, and have everyone except it.

.-*-.-*-.-*-.-*-.

"Father! Father Mark!!"

She dashed into the church, her swift footfalls muffled by the carpet on the floor. Colored light dappled her from head to foot in a rainbow wash. There were tears in her voice and panic in her eyes.

"Oh God! Father Mark!! He's dead! He's dead!! Some one killed him! No! Oh, no!! Father!!"

A priest appeared from a door behind the alter. His usually kind face was worried, and he did not walk with his usual calm. His black robe swished around his ankles as he came to meet her in the isle. She fell to her knees before him and was seized by racking sobs.

"Calm down. Calm down, my child. Breath and tell me slowly what is the matter."

It took her several minutes to calm herself enough to speak clearly enough to be understood.

"Oh God, Father Mark. It is Joseph!! My love! Joseph, my love! He's dead!! Some one had killed him! Oh God... Oh God. It's horrible. There's blood all over. I can't hardly recognise his face... Oh God... and his heart... Oh! The blood!!"

"Slow down, child. When did you find him?" The priest's eyes were beginning to show fear, anger, betrayal. But he forced himself to stay calm.

"Just now!! Just now, Father!! I came here right away when.... when I found him."

"And where were you, child. Where were you before you found him?"

She looked up at him, puzzled for a second. And then fear came into her eyes. She looked down at her hands. Hands covered in blood, clutching a bloody knife. "No..." she whispered... and ran.

Nine Days; Absolutely

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles!...

How many days in a year?

She woke up with hope but she only found tears!
And I can be so insincere
Making her promises never for real!
As long as she stands there waiting
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes!

How many days disappear?

When you look in the mirror so how do you choose?
Your clothes never wear as well the next day!
And your hair never falls in quite the same way!
But you never seem to run out of things to say!...

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles!...

How many lovers stay?
Just to put of with this shit day after day!
How did we wind up this way?
Watching our mouths for the words that we say
As long as we stand here waiting
Wearing the clothes of the souls that we choose!

How do we get there today?

When we're walking to far for the price of our shoes!
Your clothes never wear as well the next day!
And your hair never falls in quite the same way!
But you never seem to run out of things to say!...

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles!...

This is the story of a...girl!
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looks so sad and lonely there
I absolutely love her
When she smiles!...

This is the story of a girl!
Her pretty face she hid from the world!
And while she looks so sad and lonely there
I absolutely love her
When she smiles!
When she smiles!

Lose Yourself In the Music, the Moment...

oh my gosh!!!!!! homecoming was sooooooooo fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! deffinitely more so than last year. last year we stood around and watched people freak dance and said "omg! we'll never be like that!" and we made fun of people who were making out and just kinda stood around and swayed to the music... but this year... this year... we had so much fun!!!!!!!!! we danced and danced and danced... and we danced like hoes and we danced like sluts.... and we had fun!!!!!!!!!!! and Vernie was shocked because she didn't know that good little Rochwen could dance like a hoe... which she can. you just lose yourself in the music and the moment and the lights and you forget about who is watching and what they are thinking... and you dance!!!

the only thing that could make it better would be to have a boy with you.

The Speech of Chief Red Jacket to the White Man

Friend and Brother, it was the will of the Great Spirit that we should meet

together this day....

Brother, this council fire was kindled by you. It was at your request that we came

together at this time. We have listened with attention to what you have said. You

requested us to speak our minds freely. This gives us great joy; for we now consider that

we stand upright before you and can speak what we think. All have heard your voice, and

all speak to you now as one man. Our minds are agreed....

Brother, listen to what we say.

There was a time when our forefathers owned this great island. Their seats

extended from the rising to the setting sun. The Great Spirit had made it for the use of

Indians. He had created the buffalo, the deer, and other animals for food. He had made

the bear and the beaver. Their skins served us for clothing. He had scattered them over

the country and taught us how to take them. He had caused the earth to produce corn for

bread. All this he had done for his red children because he loved them. If we had some

disputes about our hunting ground, they were generally settled without the shedding of

much blood.

But an evil day came upon us. Your forefathers crossed the great water and

landed on this island. Their numbers were small. They found friends and not enemies.

They told us they had fled from their own country for fear of wicked men and had come here to enjoy their religion. They asked for a small seat. We took pity on them, granted
their request, and they sat down among us. We gave them corn and meat; they gave us

poison in return.

Brother, our seats were once large and yours were small. You have now become a

great people, and we have scarcely a place left to spread our blankets. You have got our

country, but are not satisfied; you want to force your religion upon us.

Brother, continue to listen.

You say that you are sent to instruct us how to worship the Great Spirit agreeably

to his mind; and, if we do not take hold of the religion which you white people teach, we

shall be unhappy hereafter. You say that you are right and we are lost. How do we know

this to be true?

We understand that your religion is written in a book. If it was intended for us, as

well as you, why has not the Great Spirit given to us, and not only to us, but why did he

not give to our forefathers the knowledge of that book, with the means of understanding it

rightly. We only know what you tell us about it. How shall we know when to believe,

being so often deceived by the white people?

Brother, you say there is but one way to worship and serve the Great Spirit. If

there is but one religion, why do you white people differ so much about it? Why do not

all agree, as you can all read the book?

Brother, we do not understand these things. We are told that your religion was

given to your forefathers and has been handed down from father to son. We also have a

religion which was given to our forefathers and has been handed down to us, their

children. We worship in that way. It teaches us to be thankful for all the favors we

receive, to love each other, and to be united. We never quarrel about religion....

Brother, we do not wish to destroy your religion or take it from you. We only

want to enjoy our own.

Metal Drums; Patty Larkin

From the time he was a kid

Mark O'Donnell and his buddies would

Play in the pasture out behind his neighborhood

There were acres of vacan land

And they played as only children can

Oohh in the pasture

Out in the long tall grass

Metal Drums were lying in the broken glass

The kids would play with the stuff inside of them

They'd crawl in and roll around

End up spinning around on the summer ground

Oohh in the pasture

Oohh, they were playing with the Metal Drums

Aahh, banging on the Metal Drums now

Oohh, beat that Metal Drum a little faster

In the town of Hollbrook, Mass

You're lucky if you got the chance

Working a good job making a few bucks

And it's Baird and McClair

they run that chemical plant down there

Oohh, by the pasture

Oohh, they were playing with the Metal Drums

Aahh, banging on the Metal Drums now

Oohh, beat that Metal Drum a little faster

Joanne O'Donnell had five kids

And all but one of her kids got sick

She was hard pressed for answers

And on the other side of town

There was a street where all the doctors found

Every other woman died of cancer

Oohh, they were playing with the Metal Drums

Aahh, banging on the Metal Drums now

Oohh, beat that Metal Drum a Little faster

The news broke like a lightning bolt across the red hot sky

In the blue TV light, Joanne O'Donnell cried

Seemed like the kiss of death hung in the air

When a whole town found out they'd been poisoned for years

The environmental plan

Put the site on the list of the big Top Ten

To the tune of sixty-three million

Thanks to the women and the wives

There's a chain link fence up eight feet high

But that won't bring back their children

As for Baird and McClair

All the soil from teh ground to the bedrock down there

Was ruined by the bastards

Thanks to the corporate mind

They protected their assets

They're doing fine

Too bad about the Hollbrook disaster

Oohh, they were playing with the Metal Drums

Aahh, banging on the Metal Drums now

Oohh, beat that Metal Drum a little faster

Oohh, playing with the Metal Drums

Aahh, banging on the Metal Drums

Oohh, beat that Metal Drum a little faster

Beat that Metal Drum a little faster now

Beat that Metal Drum

Beat that Metal Drum

**!!HELP!!**

Rochwen is in MAJOR need of "Introducing Yourself To Boys 101" and "Flirting 101"!!!!

Why?? Of course these are always skills which I am in need of. Actually, the best on would be "have a Non-Awkward Conversation with a Boy You Would like To Get To Know 101". You see, my greates fear is that i would introduce myself to him and then i wouldn't know what to say until he finally just made some excuse for having to go over and talk to Luke, and that would be horrible! I need to have some confidance.... *sigh* i don't want to be like this forever! Every year i tell myself that i'll get better, but it never happens, i need to MAKE it happen.

The guy i want to introduce myself to, is Jacob Shoemaker. He is in my bro's BS (Boy Scouts! what were you thinking?) troop, he is 15 or 16 according to my bro. He is also pretty good looking, homeschooled, funny (or so i've heard) and nice. And from my instincts and what little i know he is dependable and hard working. he lives in Fulton county... Fulton county Fair! i'll be there next year!! if i have to walk!! He lives on a farm too.... his father used to do Aikido and is very nice....

I am not in love with him... but were i to get to know him... i think i would be...

After the BS (Boy Scouts!! what were you thinking???) award ceremony last night, he looked me right in the eyes and smiled! i know, i know... i sound silly, but i don't care. "'Cause i'm alright i'm fine! Just freak out, let it go!"

*the innocent can never last*

Rochwen Eldariel

The Thoughts You Probably Don't Want To Know, From Yours Truly

so Rochwen has been doing some thinking. Actually she has been doing far more thinking than should be legal, but who's to stop her?? Dang... if Rochwen's parents were to read the following blog she might be locked up for life... but still. What would life be like if we didn't take chances?

So... anyhow... here goes....

First of all i do not think it is a good idea to have sex before you are 18. One reason is that if you have really paranoid, control freak parents and you have sex with a guy over 18 then he could get in a lot of trouble, even if it wasn't rape. but after that.... why not?? i mean as long as you get the guy checked out for STDs and use a condom or birth control... why not?? I certainly don't want to get pregnant as a teen, or even in my twenties. i don't think i even want to get married then. when you're married you get tied down. i don't want to be tied down, there is too much in life, places to go, things to see, horses to ride, mountains to climb, cliff walls to traverse, trails to hike, skies to fly, waters to sail, roads to peddle, stars to sleep under.... but why not share the beauty of the world with someone you love? if i were in a relationship, i wouldn't want to think of it as long term or short term... just leave options open... maybe we'd end up married... maybe we wouldn't. but no kids. really, the world has far too many people in it without me adding to the population. but why miss out on one of life's pleasures?

you can flog me, or stone me, or make me run the gauntlet or shoot me now....

*the innocent can never last*

I sure hope that is true... I don't want to be innocent forever.

Rochwen Eldariel

Haflinger: the haflinger is a breed of horse. it is like a draft pony, it looks like a miniature belgian (which is not going to help you much if you don't know what a belgian looks like). They are sturdy and roundish with golden coats (technically they are chestnut) and flaxen (white with black and interspersed). They originated from Austria. During world war II Hitler bred them very selectively to produce the perfect war horse. he wanted to use them to cross the alps so that he could conquer Europe. So he needed strong, hardy horses. They needed to have shorter legs and wide bodies. They also needed to be fat so that they could be used as food for the soldiers. Hitler was not dumb.

these horses are absolutely georgious and i am in love with them.

I had an absolutely, fabulously, marvelously, wonderfuly great time and Haflinger National!!!!! Avalons was so amazingly, charmingly, georgiously wonderful and even though i had some problems we worked them out and considering how far he's come in the past two years it is amazing. I love him!!

Also, Cyclone-whom i drove-due to the fact that Avalon is missing the piece of his brain which allows him to be driven- was also completely awesome!! she is one truly amazing horse. god, you should have seen her do Cone Scurry!!!! she was fabulous!!! she was fast, she responsive and she turned perfectly getting us through the (very difficult) course with no faults and a time of 107 and some odd100ths of seconds!!

Thank you Avalon and Cyclone!! i love you both!! and thank you Peggy and Ben for taking me!! i had a great time and couldn't have asked for more!